Saturday, March 8, 2008
I'm ready to give my life away. I'm ready to lay down my life for the sake of the glory of God. It's funny, though, because I feel like, in drifting away from making this my aim, I lost a little bit of myself. I went to Radina's tonight and listened to some great music and I thought, "Why don't I do this more often?" I told my friends that if I could do anything with my life, it would be to do exactly what those musicians were doing, sharing their hearts in a coffee shop on a Friday night. The response to that statement: Why don't you? My friend Jessica had on a crazy outfit yesterday and when I saw it, I wondered why I don't dress like that anymore. So I guess my conclusion is that I'm in a bit of a paradox. I want to get myself back; I want to express who I am, the gifts God has given me, and how he has enabled me to express those gifts. But in that process, I also want to give that life away to Father. I want to sacrifice my comfort in order for people to fall deeper in love with Christ.