Friday, August 8, 2008

Thoughts on Change, Part 1

I used to be a different person. I used to be angry. I used to be selfish. I used to be prideful. Okay, well, I still am all of these things, but not as much as I used to be. I'm sure many of you have heard the quote, "God loves us right where we are, but He loves us too much to keep us there." Well, I have found this to be so true in my life. God has shown himself to be so faithful in loving me right where I am at, but never allowing me to stay there.
There have been a few times when I have wanted to see myself drastically change. I remember my freshman year at KSTate, watching the KU basketball game in my friend's room, alone, and having an encounter with my best friend that would put me on a course for dramatic change. Just last summer, one of my friends made an offhand comment that still sticks in my mind and keeps me striving to learn more about myself and grow to be the person God wants me to be. Now, I am at that point still, wanting drastic change in my heart and mind. There is a certain part of me that God is not satisfied with. He is still loving all of me with a deep love, but He has pointed out a dark spot that needs to be cleansed and made whole by Him. It would be so easy to throw up my hands in defeat, as this is an area that I have struggled with for a long time now, and it never seems to get any better. But, as I look back on my life and see how God has changed me and been faithful to love me through those changes, how can I not move forward in faith?

2 comments:

Jen said...

Amber, you're great.

Aaron Hernandez said...

Amber, I'm sad that I you are gone, but happy that I can read your blogg and pray for you!!

PS I have a blogg too